Faith Lost
I spent many of the Sundays in my younger years in a church.
I sat on the hard wooden benches and stared at the poorly bound
and decaying green hymn books before me. I gave god a chance.
I lost faith.
I have spent many days and nights draining myself in an attempt
to fill a void in the soul of a woman I cared deeply about. I waited
while they went out and got extremely drunk, slept with other men and
did fuck knows what else. They would come home and go strait to the
bath in an attempt to clean the filth from their soul...
And I would have a bubble bath drawn for them. But each and every
one of them are gone now.
I lost faith.
Faith can be a very useful and constructive tool of the spirit.
Faith can scrape the cataracts from our yellow and hazy third eye.
Faith can suck every last god damned ounce of life from your
god forsaken body.
The wonderful thing about faith is that it is so easy to loose.
My faith can disappear as quickly as I can hang up a phone or
hit the send button on an email.
Any given holiday...
Any given conversation, or lack thereof.
A kiss...
A slap...
An orgasm...
A death...
...and my faith is just gone.
It has been said that religion is the opiate of the masses...but that is wrong.
Religion is just a way to package faith.
Like a wedding ring.
Like your mothers embrace.
Like a new years kiss......
Faith is the opiate.
And just like the ring slides off the finger and your mother gets buried after she dies,
faith slips away into a memory like the euphoric pleasure of a junkies high.
Comments
Michael D,
Thanks for the compliment.
I think it is good that you don't agree with me. Earth would be so boring if everyone saw things the way I do. I am glad that you have a mind that is open enough to listen to something that you might not agree with and still find some merit.
Posted by: Chris | April 20, 2008 2:43 AM
It’s amazing. I like it. Sounds good to me, even though I can’t agree with everything
Posted by: Michael D | April 3, 2008 6:45 AM
Josh, let me just say that you have made the most misspellings of any commenter I have ever had. It is guys like you that really make it hard for intelligent religious people to hold any good standing in the eyes of Atheists such as myself.
I don't care about your silly god or your illogical rants of sin and salvation. I don't need a god to feel good about myself. I don't need a god to have purpose. I certainly don't need some 17 year old bible thumper telling me he feels sorry for me.
I will never be a christian because there is no god.
It is really quite simple.
You don't believe in Zeus or the Easter Bunny, do you?
Well I just take it one step further.
No Zeus...
No Easter Bunny...
No Santa Claus...
No god!
Posted by: chris | August 6, 2007 12:36 AM
im sorry that you see that way as a new born christian having found god i couldnt possibly imagine my life without him im 17 years old and having god in my life now is so amazing he is my father my lover my rock my savior and yet there are people out there that when things go down take it out on him. Just think about this...... if god is all good and all loving why would he do that to you. for god lovbed the world so much he gave is only son.... he loves you so much and foregives you for everything he takes your sins from you as far as the east is from the west.. and as much as you try and deny the love and grace of the lord the more backslidden you are going to get. i hope you find him again .... in jesus name.
Posted by: josh | August 5, 2007 9:14 AM
that has to be about the best thing ive ever heard from someone......you nailed it....awesome....i completely agree with everything you had to say
Posted by: lauren | October 18, 2006 6:27 PM
i'm drowning here, and your describing the water.
Posted by: i'm the reason why cavemen chiseled on walls | September 12, 2006 11:16 PM